i wanna go and sleep.

sleep.

sleep.

sleep.

but if i sleep, problems wont solve themselves.

i hear Ju's words "Stop your self denial!". i wish i had someone to confide in. i really wish. wish so bad.

i chose to go nangyang was to start anew. to stop depending on frens. to start doing things on my own.

and i find out that cynthia liked me cos of a fren.

i'm really scared a very hansem guy, who's humorous without being lame, who watches all the latest drama serials, who plays the piano really well, who is really good in chinese, who is really good in basketball, who is really tall, who isn't gong, who has the capacity and time to dote on cynthia comes along and snatches her away.

i want to find out what i can do w/o reliance on anyone.

P.S this is my voice of despair. my voice of reason's opinion shall be heard. but i wont have the time or mood to post it.