Life is an empty hole

ducky quek! omg wtf? haiz. How can i help you? you've got no time, i've got no energy.. If you reading this, pls try to give me a call if you're free, cos i scared you got tests and i disturb you.

Wait a sec, if you studying, how will you read the blog?

Yo jas i finally did the test. Wowee i laughed out loud when i saw the results.

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Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

roflmao! is this true? i dunno whether its true.

I bought Pantera - Cowboys from Hell. mmmm. Also bought Modern Drummer.

Went to Rush.

Definition of dance club no non-smokers and non-dancers : Smoked filled place with blaring music ( at least i appreciate dance music ). Less good-lookers than i'd expect on a saturday night.

Tempted to smoke sia. How?

Si Han you dumb fuck how can you spend 5k on a gerl? Fucking nuts. Next time i see her i will scold her shitless. You also better buy the cheapest bass guitar.

I have a recording of my band performing Face. It sucks. Guitarist is actually taking guitar lessons, so i'm expecting more from him. He and Si Han totally had NO sleep.

i'm also letting it slip that for the last 2 weeks we have had no improvement in our band. No, i feel that Kell is going to be good and tight. Fuck, that sentence sounds wrong.

Perry tells me our vocalist is at his limit. I duno, he'll sound nice in recording, but if he carries on not singing the notes and being out of tune i will smack him and ask perry to fuck his anal ass.

So i'm in the lab now. I'm bored and stoning. lol. gotta get a copy of this mock test paper to do.