When?

When did this life of mine
become non-existant?
Nocturnal?
Broken?
Why have I become
a social degenerate?
Procastinator?
Not listening to friends?
Not studying
and having
No sense of urgency?

Was it after her?
After i had faith in myself
and things were beginning to look up
but after the break-up i allowed
myself to slip.

And fell into this endless abyss
and i'm still falling.

The end of my life
Do i want myself to die
a normal man?

Or do i want to go
with a $100 million
legacy?

The only way
is
to scream and
bitch
and claw
my way
out
of
this
godforsaken
vicous circle
i have
dragged
myself
in.