So i'm posting at 5am. Big deal.

I just remembered something. I remember i went to a chalet with her, and her classmates. I dun remember what we all did. I only remember the two of us laid down in the mattress and slept next to each other. Just slept peacefully. Her and her big eyes, closed.

And the next morning. It was bright out and i dunno what time. we 2 were the first ones awake, and we sat on the bench outside. And we talked. Fun talk. I dun remember what we talked about. I remembered that I talked truthfully and honestly. Just the conversation. No thoughts on 'sigh, projects and what am i doing with my life and this and that'.

No. I wasn't sleepy, I wasn't hungry, I wasn't in need of a shit I didn't worry about my fucking hair or clothes or shit. I was just up, awake, in a beautiful morning, and having a conversation with a girl i think i loved.



There i've said it and told it out. Now can i finally get on with my life with no more half-doubts?