Hello world
It sucks okay? It really really sucks.
My life really sucks.
I know i appear to be coping. I know I look like this retaining doesnt affect me. I look like i'm still smiling and joking don't I?
it fucking does all right? I'm wasting my life STUCK IN A FUCKING ROOM and almost all my closest friends are graduated. I'm doing nothing productive now, and I hate commuting to that stupid school and sitting in that stupid fucking room staring at the fucking imac.
I buy things. I BUY THINGS COS I WANT THEM I DUN CARE WHETHER I WANT IT OR NOT FUCK IT. Honestly I don't CARE if my motherfucking G-star jeans get wet, i don't care if i drop my fucking psp, i dont care if my brand new monitor's pretty, i don't care if my laptop is a fucking waste of money, i dunt care if my LV wallet gets stolen, I DONT CARE IF MY FIVE WEEKS OF TAKING A CAB TO SCHOOL EACH DAY AMOUNTS TO 375 FUCKING DOLLARS
I DONT CARE OKAY? I DONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT MY FINANCES I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM GONNA DO ABOUT LIFE I DONT KNOW
I'm fucking jealous gay's got his future and got his life. I'm fucking jealous that brandon has his parents' support to do what he wants and he's got something to fall back to. I'm fucking jealous that juri's all fine and dandy with her boyfriend. I'm fucking jealous that everyone's going on while I'M STILL STUCK IN THIS FUCKING ROUTINE.
Am I going to be the quiet bookwormish skinny scrawny guy that's all nice to his friends? Are you gonna still say 'its gonna be all right', jonny boy?
Fuck you jon.
I'll cope. This retaining won't affect me. I'll look like this retaining doesn't affect me. I'll look like i'm still smiling and joking, won't I?
1 Comments:
Hey,why dun u talk to me about all this.U know I am here for you whenever you need me.Come on man, u know me so well,u know how i am. U know i think there is nothing wrong with being depressed.I know you ll cope only because you are you.You are stronger then you think you are mister.And being retained is okay, you ll graduate soon.I am sure of that,and haven't i always told you that I believe that you are meant for great things and i still do jon.I have so much faith and believe in you.Don't give up on yourself now.DOn't disappoint me jon, please.Pull yourself together and get through all this.I know you can. And mister, its not alwasy fine and dandy btwn my bf and me.Everyone has their problems dear.And that includes me n my bf.Its just how you work things out and how much you think everything is worth it.Come on bro,pull yourself together and go on. I know you can. =)
JuJu
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